4am Loneliness

Baby wakes up early. Sleeping in to me is the equivalent of winning the lottery: so nice to dream about, bit never going to happen!!

This morning I was up at 4am again. Difficult when Baby had to be rocked 1 full hour before falling asleep that night. Difficult when M went to bed only 1 hour prior, after a night with friends. Difficult when the night before Baby was up from 2:00am-4:00am wanting to play. Difficult knowing it's impossible for me to nap.

I've been feeling lonely lately, and it weighs heaviest on me in the morning. Especially at 4am.