Tuesday, May 16, 2017

Mother's Day

Wanted to post this for Mother's Day was too busy dealing with one of Baby's epic meltdowns!

There's nothing more devastatingly heart breaking than having your child hospitalized. My wounds are still very fresh, and like Baby's scar, I will always have that mark. Yes we breakdown, we scream and cry alone in private, but somehow we suck it up and do what we have to do for our child. We are Survivors, we are Mothers.

Tuesday, May 9, 2017

Tuesday, May 2, 2017



Another crazy Tuesday! OT evaluation, grocery shopping, lunch, specialized educator appointment, driving driving driving. What I'm saving for my next day off: paper work, phone calls, cooking, cleaning, 2 more appointments and hopefully (probably not) a bit of rest. #busybragging

Tuesday, April 18, 2017

Stressful Day

5 am wake up, dysphasia, dyspraxia, hazards, questionnaires, developmental levels, spare tire, 5 appointments (out of 6), still have to change a poopy diaper, bath, massage and prepare meals for the next 2 days of work! Ouff

Saturday, April 8, 2017

Saturday, March 18, 2017

Baby Be Keeping Me Busy! part 4

Since the beginning of the year, this is what I've been up to:

1 audiology appointment
1 dentist appointment
1 ENT appointment
2 blood tests
4 appointments with 2 different physiotherapists
7 physio classes
4 appointments with 3 different social workers
1 barium swallow (for me this time)
15 appointments with 4 different specialized educators
2 appointments with an occupational therapist
1 occupational therapy workshop
2 speech therapy workshops
7 speech therapy sessions
mother goose classes
8 hours in the ER (again for me)
music classes
1 of these classes
1 meeting here*
sign and play classes

* I will be starting work in the spring, 3 days a week. I'm keeping my fingers crossed that this centre (which seems amazing with its one-on-one stimulation program) will work as a daycare for Baby. It will be costly ($40/half day) but hopefully worth the expense... The weeks ahead will be jammed packed and I'm not so confident in my juggling skills. I'm tired and feel alone in my struggles. Stress, sadness, sickness, cold, frostbite, insomnia, anxiety, it's all pilling up on my fragile self. I'm hoping spring will bring with her a new sense of energy and light. In the mean time, I think I'm going to take a personal day tomorrow, cancel everything and stay inside. I'm allowed once in a while no?

Tuesday, February 21, 2017

The Kooples



Can't afford 

Kick It To Me!!

"When you make other people less then for not participating, then you become the machine".

Wednesday, February 15, 2017

Trainspotting 2!!


ps How is it the Ewan McGregor is better looking today than 20 years ago? Love him

Saturday, February 4, 2017

Love Her, Part 2

Another one:

Cosmetic Love

Over the past few years, I've been choosing to buy organic as much as possible. Organic grains, beans, fruits, veggies, sauces, spices, teas etc. What our bodies absorb is important, this also includes our skin! Luckily, I've been able to find some really great natural products to replace my old beauty routine:

Sunday, January 15, 2017


Can't wait, looks good!!

Monday, January 9, 2017

Turning A New Leaf

It recently helped me with stress, insomnia, maybe even my anxiety. But I've decided I'm not going to smoke pot any more... Hope I don't miss it too much!

sunset on the range- ka meal x bobbi boi

Thursday, December 8, 2016


Too much meat yet so satisfying to watch...

Tuesday, December 6, 2016


I never knew I could feel so much pain in such a short time. The pain of a difficult labour and birth, the pain of a diagnosis, the pain of a separation. Physical or psychological, it feels like a slow painful death that's seemingly never ending. I want what I'm feeling to stop so badly. I want to fix it, make it all better, get an epidural for my emotions to numb the pain of this day, this life.

Tuesday, November 22, 2016

Happy Birthday!

Dear Baby,
3 years ago today you were born. It was cold and snowing, you were alone in an incubator, exposed to bright neon lights, loud beeps, sharp needles, too many wires. I was there by your side, watching you, loving every cell in your tiny frail body. As I write these words it is also cold and snowing, but unlike 3 years ago, you are sleeping in my bed warm and cozy and happy. 3 years ago I was told that the love I was feeling might fade once my hormones got back into balance... But it didn't. I love you the same indescribable way I did that day! I'm so proud of the accomplishments you have made so far and cherish every minute we're together. Happy birthday!!
Mom xox

Friday, November 18, 2016

Thursday, November 17, 2016

No Words

le témoin- ariane brunet